Let me see if I can think well enough to get through a few of my blogs today. I call my doctor tomorrow and hope to get worked in within a few days’ time. Seems I cannot get through this without meds.
My friends have been on my mind for a long time. Friends are easy to find and make in the virtual world. You just have to connect with people who have something in common with you within the game or platform you’re reaching out on, and work to not let RL intervene “too” much.
Keeping them long-term depends on so many other factors though. Going through those would take too long for a blog post, so not writing about that here.
When it comes to conflicts and mishaps, I’ve had one major mishap with a friendship.
I started on message boards for writing, then progressed to playing Urulive and meeting a close friend who created a bevin (neighborhood) within the game. We then went on to create a RP website game of our own with its own ongoing story.
We had message boards for our group. I convinced another good friend from there to join Second Life when the myst games were taken down for a few years. We got along great, things started off really good in SL, then it just went…weird.
This second close friend was also close to the first friend. Sorry for any confusion but to protect identities, the first close friend I was in the webgame creation with is #1 and the second close friend we convinced to try SL is #2.
But #2 said some really, really bad things about #1 to me when #1 was going through a rough time and gone. The type of things friends do not say about friends. I never told #1 about this.
#2 and I wasn’t having a good relationship from my point of view either. The situation turned into an almost needy, stalker-ish weird type of situation. I broke things off with #2 and even went into spending time as another avi instead to get away from the situation.
#1 and I fell apart naturally, although we’re still considered friends. #1 lost a lot of interest in the Myst work. My interest in the area increased. Kind of sad really. I was a nobody in Myst, while #1 had a wiki entry and other acknowledgements.
This made me a bit gunshy. Even years later, if things get uncomfortable, I tend to change things up so I’m out of the picture.
Like now. I haven’t reconnected with the PP crowd since the whole secondary market drama came on. I think it’s over now and people have adjusted to it.
Either my absence was noticed at the same time, or someone erroneously saw my FB intros to my posts and reported to others what I may or may not have said. Why my first few lines of posts don’t say much anymore. I feel people weren’t reading through and thinking they knew what I said.
I disapproved. I freely admit that. I went into great detail about why in a previous post. Then I unjoined the land group for it and just “disappeared” from the PP auctions and market world.
It’s their decision on how to play the game. If I don’t enjoy their way, it’s not my place to try to get everyone else to change. This was the best way I can be nice while letting them set up the game the way they need to.
Yet, my words or disappearance, or both, seems to not have settled well with many people. I’ve noticed the absence of some people at the Breast Cancer auction, which they knew was important to me, and a few other places individuals normally showed up at.
And no one has reached out to say they miss me, or Smmu, for that matter. We talked. We get it. Heard the silence loud and clear. And it’s okay. We won’t bother them anymore.
Well…I say this loosely. Must remember that SL doesn’t like me in general. Many messages don’t get through to me, so there is a chance someone has reached out and I missed it.
But still, I understand that RL and SL gets very hectic and very busy. “Coddling” an avi is just not convenient. Nor do I expect it.
I do keep watch on the group and the market. It seems like they’re working things they want, seems like a ton of auctions now, so that implies some strong interest still. That’s good. Good people. I hope they do well.
I may be back with them next year, once things are really settled in and I’ve worked through some of what I have for extra BB. I can’t say for sure when I’ll reconnect with the PP crowd.
RL is a mess with all the cancer stuff, my illness that I hope is nothing abnormal, and the family stuff going on. I just can say I miss them, think about them often, and hope they’re all doing well.